Why Does the Inner Me Go into a Tailspin?
And what can I do about it?
Sometimes practical issues are hard to address. But doable.
· Adequate sleep.
Check, check and check.
Why, oh why am I so irritable. Inside?
If it “pleases God to Reveal His Son in me” (Galatians 1:16)
When I lose my temper, mutter under my breath, silently throw around the f… word;
· What does that reveal of the inner me?
· What darkness lurks inside of me, threatening to break loose and reveal itself?
And if it does, will it bring any relief?
· I do not suffer any mental illness.
· I do not live in a stressful environment.
· I do not lack the necessities of life.
I hide the turmoil some more.
The hiding pushes the threatening pressure cooker to dangerous levels.
I must open that cooker or allow it to blow.
It’s not an option.
I hide the inner me some more.
Decide to read. The newspaper. Bad move.
Teen suicide screams the headlines. A seventeen-year-old.
Why Lord? WHY!
I head back to my devotional.
I remind myself who I really want to reveal in both my outer and my inner life.
Somewhere I read that God speaks to us through stories. Through our experiences. Through the people around us.
I want God to manifest Himself through me.
I remind myself that I’ve been so busy with being busy that my inner nourishment, my time with God, has been neglected.
I promise myself to do better.
· Not tomorrow, today.
· Not tonight when I’m tired.
· In the morning when I’m fresh.
· Not to let the darker side of me to surface.
ALBEIT IT UNSEEN AND UNHEARD IT’S THERE.
Rather think of the Dark Side as the Shadow of his Hand sheltering me until I’m ready to face the day.
Isaiah 51:16 “ And I have put my words in thy mouth, and I have covered thee in the shadow of mine hand.”
I’m one of His people. His words are true through the ages to all who believe.
Cyber hugs and Blessings All. Please enjoy my “Go-to” hymn with me.
On Eagles’ Wings.