I’ve always dreamed of living in a cabin in the mountains. Ideally, my cabin would only be accessible by horseback or running in. I would have trails for running miles and miles throughout God’s beautiful landscape.
Of course, along with that dream is the income to support not having to work 60-hour work weeks, slaving away for a corporation that will forget my name as soon as I am not an incredible profit system.
I also dream of being a history maker, somebody who makes a difference in this world of ours because of the way that I support people and help them accomplish their dreams.
My dreams are such a part of me that many days it seems as if my dreams are way out of reach and I’m never going to get there, wherever there is. On these days, I’m an incredible grouch because I’m living for my dreams and they seem to be getting further and further away the longer I live.
Faced with this dilemma, I of course went for a run. When I need to sort out my emotions and get perspective back, there is nothing that helps me more than to get out of the space in my head and find a really hard route where as I am concentrating on dancing around rocks, snow, mud, downed trees and whatever else awaits me on the trail, I ponder things.
Getting Perspective Back
The tougher the run, the better. Post holing up past my knees? Perfect! These kind of conditions are when I can turn back and begin to just talk to my loving God and ask him to talk with me.
As I climbed up through the snow on this run, I began to ask the tough questions.
“God, will my contract sales business really take off? It feels right, the timing is right and I just want to see it take off.”
“What about my writing God? How do I put into words the incredible way You encourage me to realize I am operating out of what I am capable of today, but You are increasing my capacity? And how do I encourage others through the words You put into my head?”
“How do I balance the job I still need to perform at a high level with the vision You have given me to not just make money at contract sales, but for this vehicle to be how You use me to take the freedom of business to the nations and set people free from government handouts and control?”
“Speak into my heart God and calm my worries of whether I am capable of increasing my capacity to carry what I am dreaming?”
Once I have made my requests known to God, this is where I do a very strange thing and it is only possible for me when I am not surrounded by the noise of the world around me. Hopefully, you aren’t as strangely wired as I am and you won’t need to find mountains to go running around in.
As I go about the practice of placing one foot in front of the other, I now begin to listen. I am not listening to the externals, although the birds and squirrels chattering are entertaining. I am not now listening to how my body is reacting to hard climbs and uptempo pace.
I am hearing all those external noises that are beautiful and important but there is a huge difference between hearing and listening. I am now listening. I’m listening for that still small voice that is carried on the wind and that I hear in my heart.
“Stop Living For Your Dreams”
As I hit this absolute rocking section of trail on my way back down from the 10.5 miles I had run up to Leaky Mountain, I suddenly heard something that I had heard while listening to a song. It shocked me that it took almost 17 miles of a 20-mile run until I heard the exact same thing I had heard somebody say during a prayer in a song that grabs my heart like nothing else.
I actually wrote about this song in an article published right here on Medium (Nothing Else) but I had forgotten about this woman who in the middle of this song on a video I was watching said something that made me stop.
And then I heard it on this run.
“Stop living for your dreams. Live for Jesus and your dreams will follow.”
As I hit this section, I suddenly realized I had turned this whole God thing upside down.
I was asking him to fulfill my dreams. God was asking me to fulfill His dream, which is for me to live for Him and Him alone.
Psalm 37:4 (The Passion Translation) “Make God the utmost delight and pleasure of your life, and he will provide for you what you desire the most.”
Is Jesus My Obsession?
As I rocketed down into the mouth of the canyon, I was filled with the desire to just shout and holler at the top of my lungs.
Freedom from angst and worry and striving is complete and absolute liberty.
This kind of freedom only comes about when one is not attached so strongly to their dreams and desires that one believes they have to make things happen.
When you change the question and the question has nothing to do with your dreams and desires, then and only then will you know that your obsessing for your dreams and desires has ceased and you may now live in liberty.
My forever girlfriend, also known as my wife of almost 33 years, and I sat down to chill out after dinner and we turned on some worship music. The first song that came up was Nothing Else by Cody Carnes and the very same speaker that I had probably heard about two or three weeks ago said the very same thing, “Stop living for your dreams. Start living for Jesus and watch your dreams follow.”
As I heard these words again and my wife for the first time, I know that peace filled our home because rather than trying to make things happen in our strength, we were filled with the hope that being obsessed with Jesus was going to be enough.
And maybe, just maybe, that cabin in the mountains with miles and miles of trails along with financial freedom is coming closer.
The greatest thing is that this is possible for you also. Are you ready to stop living for your dreams and start living for something far greater so your dreams can follow?