“It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
I am here to support life.
This is my new mission statement.
I make this stand because I am life, a sentient being among other sentient beings in a living universe. I can do no less than express loving-kindness to everyone and everything.
This is, of course, an idealization. I am not even close to being this way, to living with such dignity, but I believe that if I affirm my positive regard for all life-supporting issues, if I make an agreement with myself to serve life as best I can, then that aspiration will lift me to a higher expression of self-consciousness.
I used to have many self-improvement goals, but now I only hold them lightly. I am no longer driven by them. I see them as they are — a mere necessity to allow the mind to express and the body to persist.
I see my quest for a better life and a more disciplined approach to managing my mind, body, and affairs as necessities, not a calling to assume fleeting greatness.
In retrospect, I see that all my lust after wealth, power, and success was doomed to futility from the beginning. After all, I was always destined to die, always destined to lose it all. Catering to the yearnings of the ego for survival is a hopeless quest. It’s merely rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic.
After a life of struggle and hardships, which still continue, I am now on a quest for the real me. This is the self that I am, my atman, my soul-consciousness. Eckhart Tolle calls this, “the Presence.” It’s a good name, a wonderful way to describe the awareness that I am that witnesses my mind and my body trying to keep up with the demands of an ever-demanding schedule of things to do.
My aspiration now is to soften the boundaries of my ego, which always seeks gain, even if it is at the expense of someone else’s loss. My goal is to return to my real nature, to see my original face in the mirror of eternity, and to remember the name I was known by before I was born.
The more conscious I can become, the more I will be able to serve life, and the more I give without asking for a reward, the closer I will get to understanding who I am, why I am here, and what it is that I have come to do.
I do not claim to have any answers, any clear definitions of God, any understanding of the great scheme of things, any knowledge other than a few concepts picked up along the way when I was conditioned to assume this human identity.
Ultimately, then, the game of life for me, as I see it, is not to arrive anywhere, not to acquire anything, but to become my own Self and express it with abandon to help humanity recover from the insanity of trying to destroy everything in the name of political or economic progress.
There is nothing to gain from this life — except a deep understanding of Self, the beingness that transcends dimensions, the consciousness that wears bodies and assumes identities for as long as it takes to return to itself.